Thankful #2: Fellowship

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November 2nd, 2017…

I am so thankful for my family and friends.  My family is my group of friends most of the time, but that’s easier said for me because I have five brothers and six sisters!  Truly I love that I can call my family my friends because, generally speaking, family is forever. ❤  I am thankful for each one of my siblings, and my parents, individually as well as together; it is the strongest team and support system.  Also I am so thankful for my friends who are not blood related.  Many have left and I’ve had to let go, but to those who have stayed…wow!  I am so thankful and grateful them and for their different perspectives, encouragement, support, advice, company, getting together, study, and all the other things that my family can possibly never offer!

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Thank you, sweet Jesus, for my family!  I thank you for my parents and for their guidance and love, for the freedom they have given me to follow the desires I have for the things I want to do in this life, and for their wisdom that allows me to humble myself in knowing there is so much road to travel in my life before I can declare to truly “get” or understand anything.  Thank you for my siblings, for the additions to our family, and for the future additions as well; I am thrilled to find out who gets to be a part of this family that I love.  I thank you for the friends throughout my life.   Thank you for those who have stayed as well as those who haven’t.  Thank you for the lessons I’ve learned from both parties and continue to learn more and more from.  I life up to you, Father, my family and friends, and Lord, I give them to you completely, for you are mighty to save, you love us ultimately, and you are the only one who can truly help any of us, protect us, and make us into who you created us to be.  May we all be inspired by each other to seek just that; who you created us to be and why you’ve put us on this earth, in each others lives.  You are magnificent!  I love you, Lord!!  Thank you again for these people I know and those I have yet to meet, for the fellowship they offer, and the life we get to experience together.  May the bonds of those meant to be become stronger and unbreakable, may we stand up, encourage and help each other, be faithful, true and accountable to one another, and not let our brothers and sisters isolate themselves no matter how uncertain, scary or hopeless life becomes.  Make us strong so we can shine brightly together for you!  Thank you.  In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

 

Jenny~

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Thankfulness

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Day 1 of 23 days of thanksgiving…

The next 23 days I will be giving thanks for things I am truly thankful for, and here I will share them.  It is important to realize the things we are thankful for and to remember the faithfulness of our God!  No matter what happens in opposition of what we want or think is best, He is faithful and works things out for our good.

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November 1st, 2017:

I am so thankful for God’s forgiveness!  No matter how difficult it has been to find the true humility to come to God with my sins, every day, and recognize how I’ve fallen short, every day, I know though it’s hard to fathom sometimes, that He loves me SO much and forgives me for being human, but also expects me to take the appropriate steps to recover and change and will assist me in doing so.

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Thank you, Lord, for your forgiveness!  Thank you for seeing my heart in the mire of the world around me.  Thank you for your Son who gave his very own, sinless, spotless, pure and perfect life for a very sin filled, dirty, impure and imperfect one.  Thank you for the compassion, grace, patience, love, and care you pour out on us, as well as the challenges, trials, and growth you discomfort we face to make us grow and change for the better.  Thank you for the security we have in Christ and for truth of your word and who you are!  Thank you for the plan and the path for my life; I have full faith that no matter which direction I go, you will meet me there and lead me to and from opportunities, experiences, people, places and things, and, Father, I ask that you lead me in truth, guide me in Your wisdom and knowledge, and help me on this journey to defeat my battles and change and grow to be as much like Christ as I can be and to do your will and share your love and truth with as many people as I can.  In all things I pray and ask that you protect those in my life from any way I could hurt them.  Allow me to see where I am wrong and humble admit it and seek out forgiveness where it is due.  Protect me from myself, Lord!  I can be my worst enemy.  Again, I thank you for your forgiveness; if you can forgive us then we should never be afraid of another persons ability or inability to forgive.  May we humble ourselves, love others, and strive to be more like you ever moment.  I love you, Father, and pray in Jesus name, Amen.

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UPDATE: Hello blog!  Long time no write, right?!  As always, my intentions are pure when it comes to composing blog posts and sharing life on this virtual platform, but that also takes brain power and time; two things I have not had enough discipline with.  Time management I’ve found is not an easy trait I have developed, and my brain has been very overwhelmed lately with life and quite honestly the thought of adding anything extra to have to think about hurts my brain, so!

Having this blog it has been a place for me to simply unload and just write and share things.  It has been a resource for myself mainly, not an outlet for many other to find and use.  I’ve used this blog as an outlet for documenting and discovering things about myself and life and I appreciate those who have followed along; thank you.

This year (which I cannot believe is almost over and do NOT look forward to getting any older if time passes any faster then this year has!) has been very interesting and very taxing and very emotional and very stretching.  I have learned so much about so many things, and I have SO MUCH ROOM TO GROW!!!  I’ve truly begun to learn that you never stop growing and learning and discovering, and it is a sad day if you ever get to the point where you think you’ve “got it all figured out”, because quite frankly my dear, you never truly will.  Even the very depth of your being you will most likely never fully grasp (which is why I am SO thankful God knows every inch of me and I can put complete trust in Him).  It is mind boggling, aggravating, and amazing how it all works.  Mind boggling at how vast, deep and wide life is and how small we are.  Aggravating for an analytical perfectionist like myself who wants all the answers and how to’s and doesn’t like to mess up.  Amazing that there is a God, the creator of heaven and earth, who knows everything and we truly do not have reason to fear, doubt, worry, or dwell on the past or future, even though that is what we do!  That is our flesh, fallen, human instinct and struggle.  Yo, the struggle is real!!

I encourage you hopefully by anything I’ve shared today, but mainly to seek out time to go to God this month leading up to Thanksgiving (appropriate, I know) and thank Him for all He has done!  For the sun and the moon, friends, family, books, food; whatever means something to you.  Dig deep and spend time in thanksgiving.

Also, I want to say with all that’s going on in my “battlefield of the mind” so to speak, that I am growing , learning and finally taking those steps to get out of my comfort and just be.  Just be present, honest, kind, true, loving, genuine, serious, emotional, excited for life, wise, decisive, positive, joyful in the Lord, encouraging, helpful, purposeful, and other things; one step at a time.  AND that it’s okay to move slow and take things one step at a time and that I will experience many uncomfortable things if I desire to grow and move forward, etc, so *gulp*, here I am, Lord.  I am yours. ❤

Blessings to you,

Jenny~

Thanksgiving

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Thank you, Lord for this day,

for everything that hasn’t gone my way.

Thank you for my family,

the ones who truly love me,

thank you for the sounds we hear

that bring such joy to our ear.

Thank you for the sun and the moon

and the cold winter weather that will be here soon.

Thank you for holidays filled with joy

for the meaning of Christmas, which is not about toys.

Thank you for Jesus who came to save,

and was born years ago on a Christmas day.

Thank you for everything you have done,

thank you again for sending your Son.

I love you, Father, and this I pray,

that we may love and thank you every single day.

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Happy Thanksgiving!  I hope it was a wonderful day for you and your loved ones.  Have a blessed and safe weekend and Merry Christmas time!!  It’s already here!

Much love,

Jenny~

Not Feeling It

Didn’t feel like writing yesterday…or the day before, or the day before, or the day before, or the day before…you get the picture.  It’s been a week (and June daily blogging is almost over!), so let me fill you in…

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We have been moving!  Some of my siblings are moving upstairs and I am moving downstairs with Skylar who came back from Korea earlier then expected and it’s been a long 4-6 months trying to decide where everyone is going to go!  Susanna and Skylar are currently in Israel; they have been there since the last week of May.  Skylar is coming home on the 24th, and Susanna is coming home on July 2nd, I believe.

So, along with moving which has been QUITE the task, and I won’t lie, I’ve been a bit stubborn because I loved my room upstairs, but it’s just a room at the end of the day and I’m so grateful for my parents home and a place to live!  Anyway, along with that, I have been preparing for a retreat where a friend has invited me to not only participate in the retreat, but we are going to be leading worship for a whole weekend!  So that has been keeping me busy!

We have had two litters of puppies (Day Break English Setters) and when we have puppies my second job is photographing them for the website.  One litter is all settled with their new owners, and then second ones are home bound in the next couple weeks.

Well, lastly, but CERTAINLY not least, the Miller’s are coming home from South Korea and we have been preparing for their arrival and SO excited and anxious to see them!  I can’t believe two years has gone by, but at the same time it has seemed like forever and I am so so so extremely happy they are coming home!  We’ve missed them terribly.

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I was going to write about something, but I think I will save it for another day.  Sadly while I’m at the retreat coming up I won’t have access to blog for 2-3 days, but it’s been pretty easy for me to miss a week so that shouldn’t be a problem!  For those who don’t know, I have been trying, for fun, to challenge myself to post something everyday in June.  I have missed quite a few days, but it has still been fun!

Time to take a shower then finish moving some things around.  Oh, and if you want to see some pictures I’ve taken recently, here’s a link to my photography website: https://jennafifiphotography.wordpress.com/

Have a lovely evening!  Stay hydrated during these warm summer days, and I will be writing soon!

Jenny~

 

Four Days Gone By

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Hello, Blog.  It’s June 11th.  I have been computer access-less the passed four (4) days, which is why I haven’t posted for June!  Right now all I have to say is this…

Life is precious.  It is truly a gift from God, even if we have to live in this world which gets darker and terrifying and ridiculous every day.  God created you in HIS image, whether you know Him or not; you were created in the image of the God of creation and He loves you, no matter what you have, are, or will go through.  No matter what you’ve done, you’re doing, or you’re going to inevitably do!  He loves you so much that he came into this world, born of a virgin, Jesus Christ lived and breathed on this earth, the son of God, and was later sacrificed, crucified, on a cross for YOU and ME!  He gave His life in one of, if not the most brutal ways imaginable and it was all for us selfish humans and our sins.  Our debt of eternal hell was paid by the blood of a perfect Lamb.  When you ask God to forgive you of your sins, ask Jesus to wash you pure as snow with His blood you defeated death and the grave when He rose from the grave, and the Holy Spirit comes into your heart, your conscience, to convict you of your wrong ways, we; the miserable fools who can’t see passed our own noses most of the time, were given the gift and the choice in this life to live eternity in heaven!  We are promised, all those who call upon the name of the Lord (For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.” Romans 10:13), to be saved and be granted when we die to live eternity in heaven with God, the created of man, creature, nature, universe, time, science, etc!  You may not want to believe that or may have never known about it, but that right there, the decision of your eternity, is the most important decision you will ever make.  This world is fallen, we will make bad choices, meet bad people, get involved with bad things, but God has forgiven you and will continue to forgive every sin as long as you confess them to Him.  And you have full power over you decision to accept the Lord Jesus as your Savior!  You get to choose!  You’re not going to be forced to because it has to begin in your heart.

I say these things because I heard a very sad thing today, and yesterday I experienced an accident.  Today I found out that a girl, 22-years-old, a very talented singer, she was on The Voice and also had over 3 million subscribers on YouTube, was shot last night, three times, and confirmed dead this morning.  Someone took her life then took his own life and possibly the lives of other people there because he was upset (and crazy) about something?!  See how selfish we are?  It’s our second nature!  Maybe our first.  These days when everything is easy access and no one’s waiting for anything, kids are being deceived in every aspect of life, parents aren’t parenting their children well or caring for them well, everything is electronic, the list goes on.  People are losing more and more sight of what’s important, and I hate to say it but YOU are not that important.  Where were the people raising this guy when he was going through crap in his life to get to this point where he takes two shot guns and a knife to a concert and SHOOTS someone, kills her?  What was going on in his mind?  The reason these things keep happening with shooters at events (other then peoples/terrorist groups from other countries which is very different), is because they get a hold of weapons somehow and the majority of the time are on medication for mental disorders or depression, etc.  People aren’t loving them or really trying to help them.  Maybe some of these mental shooters have been paid, who knows!  I’m getting a little excited here and I don’t want to ramble on and on.  Ms. Christina Grimmie was shot, but from things she’s posted online it looks like she is in heaven with God and Jesus!  Hallelujah!  What is the point of this life if you cannot live with the hope of spending eternity with Jesus?!  We’re fearful of death, and even I don’t want to die, but I know, because of my choice to accept Jesus into my life and my heart, that when, where, however I leave this world we all know my spirit, my soul, is going to heaven!

The accident I witnessed (to keep it short) was on the way to work I was going to turn left and I was yielding, a silver car drove by and slowed down to stop at a traffic light.  Right then I decided to turn right instead of left, and as I switched my blinker, a red car came up behind the silver one (where I would have been if I turned left) and bashed right into the back of the car.  It was a awful sound and the bumper/fender and headlights/tail lights shattered all over the road.  Thankfully no one was hurt, but man!  It was a close one for myself and a crappy start to the day for both of them!

So, I don’t wish to leave anyone feeling hopeless; that is the last thing I want to do!  Please, if you have stopped by today, take this hope from what I have said: Jesus loves you so much that He died for you.  You are made perfect and whole and are completely forgiven by the blood of Christ.  All you need to do is realized you have sinned, go to Jesus confessing your sins and asking Him to forgive your sins and for the Spirit of God to come reside in your heart.  For anyone who hasn’t done this who may be reading this post, I will leave some links at the end of this post of some wonderful resources (*I am NOT sponsored!).

Blessings to you.  May you have an amazing day, a safe weekend, and tell those you love and hold close to you how much you love them.  It’s so important to do that everyday.  Not only does it lift your spirits, but it also lets people know that they are loved which prevents depression, for example, and awful accidents from happening.

Oh, and I have nothing against guns; I believe wholeheartedly that responsible, legal, gun owners should be able to defend themselves with their guns and defend people around them if they were ever in a shooting situation as such.  No matter how much you out law something, people who want it are going to get it at any cost; even the cost of someone else’s life.

Okay!  I will write tomorrow for sure and have a more cheery topic!  Much love and many blessings.

Jenny~

 

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P.S. I did not go back and proof read so I ask for you forgiveness of anything misspelled…

News

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Hello Monday!  Unlike a lot of people, I love Monday.  Here are my reasons…

  1. I don’t usually work.  Whoop!
  2. I have voice lessons. ❤
  3. (If I wake up on the right side of the bed) It’s truly a day for me to try and start my week of well.

So, there you go!

Well…I may have “talked it up” a bit from yesterday about the exciting news, or interesting news, I had to share today…allow me to expound.  My sister and I did a butt-whooping workout today which we are going to be doing the next 20 days, and I am openly admitting that it near killed me!  I knew, stamina and endurance wise, I was out of shape, but I didn’t know I was THIS bad!

My stamina and endurance are really low due to not keeping up with regular cardio, and from being really sick with mono.  People think that’s an excuse.  (*Let me make something clear…I DO NOT take making or having excuses lightly!)  A long term side effect is fatigue.  In my case, of course, I got a critical case of mono a few years ago now and I have had a sort of chronic fatigue to this day.  Cardio is something I have to take at a MUCH slower pace then the average person and try not to feel discouraged about how easily I get winded.  It’s strange to me because I was a dancer and could dance all day!  I’ll tell you right now I could barely make it through a ballet class.  But my goal for this workout is to build my stamina and endurance back up!

So that was my news.  Haha! 🙂

I am currently sitting on my bed, getting ready to go to sleep, and a HUGE, we’re talking mammoth, cockroach just ran down my wall into my closet and I screamed (yes, like a little girl!), and now am looking around my room like a crazy person making sure it doesn’t pop out and surprise me.  I.  Hate.  Cockroaches.  If I don’t write tomorrow, you’ll know what happened (meaning I was jumped and eating by a monster roach).  Lord, why did you create them?  I will never understand!

Tomorrow will be a nice day full of activities.  If I don’t forget (or if I survive the night), I will post about it tomorrow!  Until then, God bless, stay awesome and enjoy your evening.

LOVE,

Jenny~

Saturday, June 4th

Aloha!  So, already I’ve missed one day, but I have good reasons!  Yesterday, June 3rd, I woke up at 5am with horrible stomach pain.  Turns out a snuck some dairy into my body from the day before, little to my knowledge, and I was throwing up all morning which left me feeling very weak and pathetic all day Friday!  SHOUT OUT to my amazing coworker who was able to last minute fill in for me.  Thank you SO much!

Anyway, that was my Friday.  I do not wish the pain of lactose intolerance on anyone.  It is awful!

Last year I posted something (one or two posts) each month except December, and this year I posted in January then missed the four months between January and June!!!  Just coming to that realization and I can’t believe it!  No it’s not a big deal, but how can I call myself a blogger if I took a four month hiatus?  Sometimes you just need a break, but it’s not like this blog is taxing on my life whatsoever!  But here I am now, so I will stop writing about how I’ve not been blogging.

Okay, I lied…one thing about not blogging is that I take TONS of pictures with the intent to blog about them and I don’t, therefore I have TONS of pictures of past events or ideas that wouldn’t make much sense to post now and I have to decide whether to delete them or not.  Okay, now I’ll move on.

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I’m going to “brag” on a few of my siblings real quick…

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This kid is losing all of his teeth!  It’s crazy!  Two front teeth are gone, one bottom tooth fell out yesterday, and a few more have come out!  What a stinker.

Mr. Cael never smiles for pictures, so my friends, this is a very RARE picture!  He is such a little man; tough, serious, sensitive, adventurous, caring, animal whisperer, thinker.  He’s so cute, but if he were to read that I would be chased around the kitchen!  He prefers not to be referred to as cute, as hard as it is not to say.

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John is a creature enthusiast.  This lovely chameleon is Emerald.  She is awesome.  I love her.  John is currently adding onto a small salt water aquarium tank he has and it is full of crazy creatures!  He is very knowledgeable about his creatures, though sometimes he thinks he’s a little too smart, but John is a very gentle and sensitive young man, with great ideas and good intentions, and he has a blog he’s also working on called John’s Pet Basket: Reef Snippets.  Check it out!

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Oh, what a heart throb!  This one is going to have all the young ladies falling over themselves.  Again, another sensitive, dear young man.  Eli is so thoughtful, helpful, caring, and smart!  Very good at figuring out how things work and putting things back together after taking them apart.  He is getting way too tall though!  I am very short (5 foot 1 1/2 inches), so having all my younger brother growing sky high over me is very strange.  Eli just got a lizard, but I don’t remember what kind he is.  Sniffleton is his name, if I remember correctly (he just got him 2-3 days ago).  All of my brothers are outdoors men, especially this guy.  No shoes and all!

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Well, I am going to work in my room.  I need to go outside and breath some fresh air!  We’re working on moving bedrooms around so I’ve got a lot of work to do.  Thank you for stopping by and have a blessed weekend!  Make sure you tell your family you love them!

Much love,

Jenny~

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