A Hot Minute…

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“There are so many things to reflect on in life. This past year to date was a very interesting time for me…”

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Hello blog!! It’s been a hot minute.  The consistency of writing and sharing virtually has not been a reality in my life the last year or more, if you haven’t noticed.  But here I am, July 9th, 2018; here to share with you as I sit and reflect on recent experiences in life…

A year ago, July 2017, was a very very, what’s the word…surreal time.  Have you ever felt like you are just an empty body watching life pass by with no way to interact; like you’ve lost all ability to connect to your life, to God, to people?  Well that’s a glimpse of my state of mind a year ago.  The year before last I went through something really emotionally and mentally painful and draining and it took a full year (plus some) to see the light at the end of the tunnel so to speak.  I didn’t not handle well what I went through, but let me assure you that it was nothing life threatening or crazy, but simply and sadly a common pain many people have felt; it was just my first time feeling it and it hurt so badly…hmmm…

That was almost two years ago now!  Time flies guys; I don’t like how fast time passes away.  Anyway.  Last year (summer 2017) I went through a different situation, but again a very emotionally and mentally stressful and exhausting one!  Not handling the year before well, I never fully dealt with things and really clung to the pain I had gone through and therefore was just completely zeroed out!  The second time around though, I have had a better grip and perspective on the “healing process”.  Though it’s been a hard year to say the least, I have been able to focus more on the positive, on the growth and learning opportunities, and on the many reasons why God is so amazing and we shouldn’t EVER be afraid of what life throws at us; preaching to myself here because still that’s a difficult thing at times and easy to forget in the midst of a trial.

I was resistant against changing, against growth and believing in myself that I’m not
“worthless” and that I haven’t ruined my every chance at living a marvelous life.  But truly by the grace of God, the last two years have molded me and changed me and made me a young woman who finally is learning to grasp the concept that my past, my failures, my mistakes, and my pain don’t define me.  Jesus’ blood is spilled over each individual wrongdoing and impurity in my life…still learning how to fully grasp that because it’s mind blowing!

Also, I’ve realized that life is kinda about these tough experiences and how we deal with them…you go through experiences and learn, and God often uses those experiences not only to reveal Himself and help you grow, but to help other people in your life as well; so we can relate and share with people who may be going through something similar.  It’s all in how we handle what life, what God, throws at us.  We can either hold grudges, dwell over the past, ignore things, etc, or we can take a deep breath, confront and deal with the issue, and learn very valuable things that will further help us in life and help others!

The biggest thing I’ve learned out of the many things that have been revealed to me recently is that I can trust myself, I am so very capable because of Christ, I never need to be ashamed of who I am, and the things I’m afraid of are not going to kill me.  ALSO!  I have a very amazing, big, powerful, merciful, forgiving, caring, loving, mighty, gracious, faithful, reliable, honest, true, real and awesome God, and for that I am truly truly grateful.

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I write these things half holding my breath because summertime has brought some heavy loads the last few years!  My prayer is that whatever I’ve shared, even though not in complete detail, is able to help someone, to bring hope and comfort and assurance that you are not alone. ❤  No matter what…

Also, though some things above may sound dramatic or extreme, I promise nothing too crazy or horrible has happened in my life.  There are people who have suffered much more greatly!  But again, perspective is everything, and even though situations or circumstances may not be exact, the feelings and experiences mentally and emotionally or even physically and spiritually, are valid and relatable.  That’s one of the amazing gifts God has shared with us; the ability to empathize, understand, relate to, and encourage each other as we all go through life dealing with and experiencing things.

Thank you, Lord, for your mercy, grace, and faithfulness.  I have a looong way to go from here, but I am forever grateful for your great love for me!  How you see me as worthy, as righteous, I will never understand; but thank you for your Son, Jesus Christ, perfect and blameless and completely without sin, who came to give up his perfect life to take on my filth, shame, pain, sin-filled life, bore it and every other persons debts on the cross, to give each of us the opportunity to be made right before God, the reason you see us blameless and pure because you see your Son and what he bore for our sake.  Thank you for the gift of Salvation; for the Holy Spirit who dwells within those who call upon the name of Jesus!  Open our eyes and speak to our hearts, especially those who do not know you; reveal yourself to those who don’t know you.  May they realize you are the missing piece to their puzzle and the reason they are alive!  Amen.

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Thank you for reading.  Until next time…

Sincerely,

Jenny~

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Thankfulness

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Day 1 of 23 days of thanksgiving…

The next 23 days I will be giving thanks for things I am truly thankful for, and here I will share them.  It is important to realize the things we are thankful for and to remember the faithfulness of our God!  No matter what happens in opposition of what we want or think is best, He is faithful and works things out for our good.

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November 1st, 2017:

I am so thankful for God’s forgiveness!  No matter how difficult it has been to find the true humility to come to God with my sins, every day, and recognize how I’ve fallen short, every day, I know though it’s hard to fathom sometimes, that He loves me SO much and forgives me for being human, but also expects me to take the appropriate steps to recover and change and will assist me in doing so.

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Thank you, Lord, for your forgiveness!  Thank you for seeing my heart in the mire of the world around me.  Thank you for your Son who gave his very own, sinless, spotless, pure and perfect life for a very sin filled, dirty, impure and imperfect one.  Thank you for the compassion, grace, patience, love, and care you pour out on us, as well as the challenges, trials, and growth you discomfort we face to make us grow and change for the better.  Thank you for the security we have in Christ and for truth of your word and who you are!  Thank you for the plan and the path for my life; I have full faith that no matter which direction I go, you will meet me there and lead me to and from opportunities, experiences, people, places and things, and, Father, I ask that you lead me in truth, guide me in Your wisdom and knowledge, and help me on this journey to defeat my battles and change and grow to be as much like Christ as I can be and to do your will and share your love and truth with as many people as I can.  In all things I pray and ask that you protect those in my life from any way I could hurt them.  Allow me to see where I am wrong and humble admit it and seek out forgiveness where it is due.  Protect me from myself, Lord!  I can be my worst enemy.  Again, I thank you for your forgiveness; if you can forgive us then we should never be afraid of another persons ability or inability to forgive.  May we humble ourselves, love others, and strive to be more like you ever moment.  I love you, Father, and pray in Jesus name, Amen.

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UPDATE: Hello blog!  Long time no write, right?!  As always, my intentions are pure when it comes to composing blog posts and sharing life on this virtual platform, but that also takes brain power and time; two things I have not had enough discipline with.  Time management I’ve found is not an easy trait I have developed, and my brain has been very overwhelmed lately with life and quite honestly the thought of adding anything extra to have to think about hurts my brain, so!

Having this blog it has been a place for me to simply unload and just write and share things.  It has been a resource for myself mainly, not an outlet for many other to find and use.  I’ve used this blog as an outlet for documenting and discovering things about myself and life and I appreciate those who have followed along; thank you.

This year (which I cannot believe is almost over and do NOT look forward to getting any older if time passes any faster then this year has!) has been very interesting and very taxing and very emotional and very stretching.  I have learned so much about so many things, and I have SO MUCH ROOM TO GROW!!!  I’ve truly begun to learn that you never stop growing and learning and discovering, and it is a sad day if you ever get to the point where you think you’ve “got it all figured out”, because quite frankly my dear, you never truly will.  Even the very depth of your being you will most likely never fully grasp (which is why I am SO thankful God knows every inch of me and I can put complete trust in Him).  It is mind boggling, aggravating, and amazing how it all works.  Mind boggling at how vast, deep and wide life is and how small we are.  Aggravating for an analytical perfectionist like myself who wants all the answers and how to’s and doesn’t like to mess up.  Amazing that there is a God, the creator of heaven and earth, who knows everything and we truly do not have reason to fear, doubt, worry, or dwell on the past or future, even though that is what we do!  That is our flesh, fallen, human instinct and struggle.  Yo, the struggle is real!!

I encourage you hopefully by anything I’ve shared today, but mainly to seek out time to go to God this month leading up to Thanksgiving (appropriate, I know) and thank Him for all He has done!  For the sun and the moon, friends, family, books, food; whatever means something to you.  Dig deep and spend time in thanksgiving.

Also, I want to say with all that’s going on in my “battlefield of the mind” so to speak, that I am growing , learning and finally taking those steps to get out of my comfort and just be.  Just be present, honest, kind, true, loving, genuine, serious, emotional, excited for life, wise, decisive, positive, joyful in the Lord, encouraging, helpful, purposeful, and other things; one step at a time.  AND that it’s okay to move slow and take things one step at a time and that I will experience many uncomfortable things if I desire to grow and move forward, etc, so *gulp*, here I am, Lord.  I am yours. ❤

Blessings to you,

Jenny~

Thanksgiving

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Thank you, Lord for this day,

for everything that hasn’t gone my way.

Thank you for my family,

the ones who truly love me,

thank you for the sounds we hear

that bring such joy to our ear.

Thank you for the sun and the moon

and the cold winter weather that will be here soon.

Thank you for holidays filled with joy

for the meaning of Christmas, which is not about toys.

Thank you for Jesus who came to save,

and was born years ago on a Christmas day.

Thank you for everything you have done,

thank you again for sending your Son.

I love you, Father, and this I pray,

that we may love and thank you every single day.

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Happy Thanksgiving!  I hope it was a wonderful day for you and your loved ones.  Have a blessed and safe weekend and Merry Christmas time!!  It’s already here!

Much love,

Jenny~

Life Check

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Life…sometimes the only word that comes to my mind is life; no further explanation.

There are so many little things we care so deeply about.  So many little things that we make into the biggest deals ever.  So many little things that make up each day, every care and concern we have, and yet they are all just little things!

The color of the wall, the status of the dishes, getting an A on a test, changing your tires; the list goes on.  How we feel, think, and react in situation, how we view things, how we handle things, how we respond to people and talk to people.  These are all little things.

I say little to put it in perspective.  To us, the littlest things seem so big sometimes and the biggest things seem nonexistent.  But guess what?  All the little things and all the big things are exactly the same to God, and to Him everything is a little thing.  That doesn’t mean He doesn’t care about everything, but what it does mean is that He can help with everything and anything and that He’s capable of all things, especially the things we care so much about.

Give God everything you are caring about, thinking about, worrying about, looking forward to, pursuing, investing in, etc etc etc.  Anything that takes passion, desire, motivation, ambition, integrity from you, give it to God and you will prosper all the more!  Relax in His love and presence and accept His peace which surpasses all understanding!  We are not alone, no matter what you have, what you are or what you will go through; He is always there.  Do you know how much He loves you?  Apparently so much that we cannot even comprehend!  Our God is an awesome God, an amazing Father who loves His children more then anything this world can ever possibly offer.

May God bless you and keep you and make His face to shine down upon you and give you peace…I pray that your mind and heart will be open and sensitive to the Holy Spirit, that you will make the best decision for yourself and accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior.  “Come to ME all who are heavy laden and I will give you rest.”— Jesus.

Much love, blessings, and may you have an amazing evening and a wonderful day tomorrow!

Jenny~

P.S. Day 9 of 21 down for our exercise!  Whoop!  12 more days to go!!

June 12th, 2016

It’s 1:22am…June 13th, technically.  I have to go to bed, but here’s a song I recorded over the weekend!  Please enjoy and thank you for stopping by and listening!

Jenny~

**UPDATE: If you are having trouble viewing the song, I apologize!  Try going to soundcloud.com/jennifer-barger-7  copy and paste that link and there you can view the song posted below and others!  Thank you!

Four Days Gone By

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Hello, Blog.  It’s June 11th.  I have been computer access-less the passed four (4) days, which is why I haven’t posted for June!  Right now all I have to say is this…

Life is precious.  It is truly a gift from God, even if we have to live in this world which gets darker and terrifying and ridiculous every day.  God created you in HIS image, whether you know Him or not; you were created in the image of the God of creation and He loves you, no matter what you have, are, or will go through.  No matter what you’ve done, you’re doing, or you’re going to inevitably do!  He loves you so much that he came into this world, born of a virgin, Jesus Christ lived and breathed on this earth, the son of God, and was later sacrificed, crucified, on a cross for YOU and ME!  He gave His life in one of, if not the most brutal ways imaginable and it was all for us selfish humans and our sins.  Our debt of eternal hell was paid by the blood of a perfect Lamb.  When you ask God to forgive you of your sins, ask Jesus to wash you pure as snow with His blood you defeated death and the grave when He rose from the grave, and the Holy Spirit comes into your heart, your conscience, to convict you of your wrong ways, we; the miserable fools who can’t see passed our own noses most of the time, were given the gift and the choice in this life to live eternity in heaven!  We are promised, all those who call upon the name of the Lord (For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.” Romans 10:13), to be saved and be granted when we die to live eternity in heaven with God, the created of man, creature, nature, universe, time, science, etc!  You may not want to believe that or may have never known about it, but that right there, the decision of your eternity, is the most important decision you will ever make.  This world is fallen, we will make bad choices, meet bad people, get involved with bad things, but God has forgiven you and will continue to forgive every sin as long as you confess them to Him.  And you have full power over you decision to accept the Lord Jesus as your Savior!  You get to choose!  You’re not going to be forced to because it has to begin in your heart.

I say these things because I heard a very sad thing today, and yesterday I experienced an accident.  Today I found out that a girl, 22-years-old, a very talented singer, she was on The Voice and also had over 3 million subscribers on YouTube, was shot last night, three times, and confirmed dead this morning.  Someone took her life then took his own life and possibly the lives of other people there because he was upset (and crazy) about something?!  See how selfish we are?  It’s our second nature!  Maybe our first.  These days when everything is easy access and no one’s waiting for anything, kids are being deceived in every aspect of life, parents aren’t parenting their children well or caring for them well, everything is electronic, the list goes on.  People are losing more and more sight of what’s important, and I hate to say it but YOU are not that important.  Where were the people raising this guy when he was going through crap in his life to get to this point where he takes two shot guns and a knife to a concert and SHOOTS someone, kills her?  What was going on in his mind?  The reason these things keep happening with shooters at events (other then peoples/terrorist groups from other countries which is very different), is because they get a hold of weapons somehow and the majority of the time are on medication for mental disorders or depression, etc.  People aren’t loving them or really trying to help them.  Maybe some of these mental shooters have been paid, who knows!  I’m getting a little excited here and I don’t want to ramble on and on.  Ms. Christina Grimmie was shot, but from things she’s posted online it looks like she is in heaven with God and Jesus!  Hallelujah!  What is the point of this life if you cannot live with the hope of spending eternity with Jesus?!  We’re fearful of death, and even I don’t want to die, but I know, because of my choice to accept Jesus into my life and my heart, that when, where, however I leave this world we all know my spirit, my soul, is going to heaven!

The accident I witnessed (to keep it short) was on the way to work I was going to turn left and I was yielding, a silver car drove by and slowed down to stop at a traffic light.  Right then I decided to turn right instead of left, and as I switched my blinker, a red car came up behind the silver one (where I would have been if I turned left) and bashed right into the back of the car.  It was a awful sound and the bumper/fender and headlights/tail lights shattered all over the road.  Thankfully no one was hurt, but man!  It was a close one for myself and a crappy start to the day for both of them!

So, I don’t wish to leave anyone feeling hopeless; that is the last thing I want to do!  Please, if you have stopped by today, take this hope from what I have said: Jesus loves you so much that He died for you.  You are made perfect and whole and are completely forgiven by the blood of Christ.  All you need to do is realized you have sinned, go to Jesus confessing your sins and asking Him to forgive your sins and for the Spirit of God to come reside in your heart.  For anyone who hasn’t done this who may be reading this post, I will leave some links at the end of this post of some wonderful resources (*I am NOT sponsored!).

Blessings to you.  May you have an amazing day, a safe weekend, and tell those you love and hold close to you how much you love them.  It’s so important to do that everyday.  Not only does it lift your spirits, but it also lets people know that they are loved which prevents depression, for example, and awful accidents from happening.

Oh, and I have nothing against guns; I believe wholeheartedly that responsible, legal, gun owners should be able to defend themselves with their guns and defend people around them if they were ever in a shooting situation as such.  No matter how much you out law something, people who want it are going to get it at any cost; even the cost of someone else’s life.

Okay!  I will write tomorrow for sure and have a more cheery topic!  Much love and many blessings.

Jenny~

 

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https://answersingenesis.org/gospel/salvation/

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http://www.lightsource.com/ministry/way-of-the-master-video/

http://www.wayofthemaster.com/

 

P.S. I did not go back and proof read so I ask for you forgiveness of anything misspelled…

Sunday-Fun Day!

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June 5th, 2016: Blog Entry…

So, today wasn’t really a “fun” day, but fun day rhymed with Sunday and, well, you gotta love a good rhyme!

Today I played ukulele and read my bible.  I’d say it was a very good day that I was content with.  After bible reading, ukulele playing, going through some emails and running down the stairs to eat the last orange cinnamon roll, I washed my hair and painted my nails.  Oh yeah!

Honestly today has been super lazy and laid back.  Can’t complain, won’t complain.  Tomorrow is the start to another week, and BOY will I have something to report about tomorrow!  Just wait, if there’s anyone out there reading…

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Hmmm…God is so good.  Every time I am fearful or doubtful of humanity, I can turn to the Bible and find so much truth and reassurance!  Thank you, Lord, for your reassurance and truth and most of all for your desire to have a relationship with you people!  You’ve created humans in your image, with almost limitless capability.  You are amazing, God, and I am truly honored to be a part of your creation!  Thank you, Father!  I love you and ask for your blessings upon us this coming week, be with those who do not know you as savior and open their minds and hearts to be sensitive to the Holy Spirit.  I pray in Jesus name, Amen!

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Have a wonderful evening and a glorious Monday!  Let’s see what this week has in store for us.

Jenny~

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